I am constantly telling one of my friends that God’s plan is perfect and He doesn’t make mistakes, but I haven’t been taking my own advice whatsoever. I always say that He doesn’t make mistakes. He has a faultless plan.
He doesn’t have a broken plan.
As I was writing a journal entry on wondering what was wrong with me that I had not ever been in a relationship, I realized that I needed to take a taste of my own medicine. Thinking that maybe something was wrong with me, maybe I am too hopeful, maybe it’s my personality, my past, my actions, my dreams. The devil was grabbing ahold of those little insecurities, doing the best thing he does, and blowing them out of proportion, making me feel unworthy and not enough. I felt not enough, not lovable, not respectable, the list goes on and on. Then I came to this realization.
Isaiah 43:18-19 // “Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.”
I am single right now because I am supposed to be.
I am meant to be single right now. It’s not an accident, a fluke, or a mistake. I am where I am for a reason. I am here. He is using my season right now for something wonderful. He is growing me, shaping me, loving me, and creating the future me. He is making me reliant on Him. God is molding me into someone who is wise, kind and respectable, all through trusting Him.
Psalm 139:14 // “I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.”
Why am I wishing away my season of singleness?
Why am I? All of my friends who are getting engaged, getting in relationships, and going on dates seem so happy, but I can be just as happy through being single. Being single doesn’t automatically mean that I am not as loved. It does not mean that I don’t have as good a life as those people in relationships. I think that I have always believed that being in a relationship is the key to success. Sure, I naturally crave marriage and having a partner, but I’m realizing that the piece of the puzzle that makes me happy isn’t a boyfriend. The piece of the puzzle that makes me happy is being content and relying on Him.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 // “Be joyful always; pray continually; give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.”
Wouldn’t you agree that relationships are seen so high up in this world? They are wonderful, yes, but they aren’t fulfilling if they don’t have a whole lot of Jesus in the mix. We value relationships so much that we forget to be present in the moment. I have to be reminded daily to be where my feet are planted. I am a dreamer. I love looking towards the future. I love imagining my future, what life will look like in 1 year, 5 years, or even 10 years. Any of my friends can attest to that.
Relationships are so valued, but why isn’t the season of singleness?
I really don’t know, but it has taken me a while to realize that both are worthy, both seasons are good. In all honesty, I will probably forget this realization in week and I will go back to thinking of relationships and the future. It is my goal to remember the present, to embrace my singleness, to enjoy this season of my life.
Purpose. He is giving me purpose. Nothing is a mistake. I don’t need to be thinking that my life is a mistake. This season of my life is here for a reason. Be present where your feet are planted.
I am worthy. You are worthy. Whatever season you are in, you are there for a reason, so don’t doubt that. Whether you are 15, 21, 28, 30, 35, or 40, you are in this season for a reason. You are here. You are so blessed. His plan is faultless.