What do you do when you are spiritually dry? What does that even mean?
A couple of weeks, a good friend asked, “Oh, are you spiritually dry?”
I never really thought of the possibility of that until she mentioned it.
Being spiritually dry can mean differently things for each person. For me, it means that I don’t care that I’m sinning, I don’t want to spend time with Jesus, and going to church just does not sound appealing.
For others, it means being cranky, a change in mood, or lack of motivation to have any spiritual interaction. Or, it might mean looking for worldly approval, becoming numb, or using harsh language. As I said, everyone is different.
When I was spiritually dry, I knew that something needed to change, but it was hard to pinpoint what exactly. Have you ever been in that place? You aren’t happy with your life, you don’t know what you’re doing, but you don’t really want to change? You’re content in your place in life, but at the same time, you’re empty and numb?
If you’re there right now, know that everyone goes through these seasons. Even the people who seem to be “the best Christians.” Everyone experiences distance sometimes. We aren’t perfect humans by any means. We weren’t made to be perfect.
Psalm 42:1-2 says, “As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?”
In this passage, the poet is talking about how he longs to be close to God, yet He seems distant. He longs to be filled up, to be in God’s presence. We all go through times where we long for God’s presence, where we want Him, the reassurance of His presence and love.
After I came to the conclusion that I wasn’t happy and I was just numb from the sin, I forced myself to go to church. I didn’t really want to go, I didn’t expect to truly enjoy it, but I knew that after it was all said and done, God would be working in me and through me.
Right before I walked into that church service, I prayed that the Lord would teach me something new, that He would restore me and fill me up. Guess what, y’all? He did just that. He restored me, made me whole, made me crave his presence and his love instead of loving the worldly things, the sin that was in my life.
The church sermon was on the living water, being filled up when the world can’t fill you up. This sermon was truly a truth slap- it hurt, but it was just what I needed to hear.
After that church service, I went to Target, bought a journal and began to start a new journey and to take a new step. Ever since, I have been journaling my thoughts, my prayers, my worries, my dreams, everything that I want to share with God, everything that I would tell my best friend.
It’s not that I’ve been forcing myself to spend time with Him, but I’ve been praying to crave time with Him. He answers prayers and He listens. I’ve been wanting to spend time with Him. I’ve been looking forward to spending time with Him. It is truly one of the greatest things that has happened this semester.
I finally am craving the time I spend with Jesus and I am realizing that without it, without that intimacy and special time, I am more likely to conform to the world.
Yeah, I’m not perfect and sometimes I write just a few sentences and call it a night, but journaling to Him has been so fruitful. If YOU are spiritually dry, take your gift and use that to spend time with Him. If your gift is singing, worship Him through song. If your gift is photography, photograph the beautiful world that He created. Make it whatever is meaningful and special to you. I personally love to journal, to write, and to reflect. This is what I like to do, so do what you like to do.